Worthless

Last night was a rough night for me. I've been so happy with the way I have been living my life, however there are those who disagree. There are few people who I truly look up to, those people disagree with what I am doing with my life (I will not say names). They believe that I have ruined my life by getting married this young and now having a baby. Obviously my goal after I graduated wasn't to be a wife and mother, but I am. I wish I would've gone to school and started my dream, but I wouldn't change anything about my life. Just because I have put school on hold does not mean I won't ever go to school. My dream is to be independent, I want to have my degree and my own career. I only have done my plan in a reverse order, I still plan on doing so much with my life.

I was hurt when those people who I looked up to no longer wished to speak to me. They thought that because of what I've decided to do is to not start school right away they do not want to be apart of that. What they do not know is that they are the ones that taught me to never let anything bring me down nor get in my way. I see the baby as a blessing and just a detour in my plan. It was meant to happen, so it did. They taught me to strive for what I want in life when things do not turn out the way I've wished.

I was so upset last night to finally sit down and realize I've let them down, I felt worthless. Luckily I have a supportive husband who stayed up with for the time that I had a break down (2 hrs). I am lucky to have him in my life to help me when those who are supposed to be there are not.

Now, I am upset again so I am cutting this short!